Shawn Farner: Songwriter

Every Last Part

this time, i can’t wait
i can’t let another butterfly escape
from this cacoon, this beautiful June
to bless me only to leave too soon

what i’m trying to say is this
you stay and i’ll have nothing more to miss
yes, it’s true that i would do
anything if we could see this through

if i can just have you, now

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i will shake you out
make you feel what i feel in my heart
oh, you control me and it’s time you know me
every last part

so, take two steps to here
maybe the situation seems more clear
dear, i’ve been waiting for you, you’re the sun to my moon
i light up when you walk in the room

the ways that i’ll love you, now

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come close and you’ll see
this heart pounds, it will not sleep
when you’re near, it wants nothing more
than to break free, cause it’s not mine, it’s yours

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My Apology (I'm Sorry)

i’ll stop to breathe
and then get back to finding what defines me
indecisive and afraid to take a chance
but that’s not news to you, you knew it first hand

you tried your best
and i tried to deny the pounding in my chest
i had my defenses, i fought and won the war
and lost the best thing i could’ve ever asked for

so i’ll write this for you and say nothing more

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here’s my apology, i’m so sorry
for the secret i kept and all the nothing i said
you’ll finally hear it, dear, a little late, but sincere
i’ve loved you all along, and now your love is all gone

i blew our chance to be
i’m sorry
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i built a time machine
took me a minute into the future, that’s the last thing i need
i wish that i could go back to five years ago
and say the things i couldn’t say and never let you go

but we both know that i can’t do that, so

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i walked seventeen blocks down the street
to fix a mistake
it’s long, so i wrote it down onto this sheet
i’ll wait

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i’m sorry

Third Story Window

From a third story window
I watch it rain onto B street
Forty nights to the hour
You needed to breathe

Blew my rent on some cigarettes
My nerves needed calming
Threw my clothes in the washer
I’m going out clean

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From a third story window
Watching the sun die
Thick crowds, dark clouds
Eventual goodbyes

Turn the news on for a look
Panic growing in the city
And the traffic goes for miles
Like there’s any saving

Take a shot of the whiskey
That I hide in the bottom drawer
Break a promise to everyone
Why keep it quiet anymore?

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Thick crowds, dark clouds
Sorry that I’m thinking out loud
Never thought I’d last such a short time
That I’d live to see such a sure sign

That the world, the world is ending
No desire to keep pretending
More lost than I’ll ever know
In my own place, standing at the third story window

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Go Find Love

hey
don’t you get carried away
it’s not what i wanna say
but it’s what you need to hear

i pray
that you won’t be bitter, please
feel no animosity
when it’s made clear

you and me, it can’t be done
my heart’s not with it, so don’t settle
the locks are cut
so go find love

hey
i know, i know this pain
it kills me to have to say
words that enable tears

today
the sun will set, you see
tomorrow, watch the east
you’ll rise again, dear

you and me, it can’t be done
my heart’s not with it, so don’t settle
the locks are cut
so go find love

seek it out, search the world
billions of oysters, you will find your pearl
cross the land, cross the sea and there he’ll be
but it’s not me, it can’t be

you and me, it can’t be done
my heart’s not with it, so don’t settle

Safe

safe, safe
i’m a fan of everything safe
i’d rather stand still in one place
a place i know where everything’s safe

wait, wait
i’m waiting to be handed my fate
i’m waiting to be told the right way
i’m hoping it’s where everything’s safe

paralyzing fear of the unknown
petrified to do this all alone
mortified at the thought of taking risks
when i don’t know the consequences

safe, safe
i’m still here where everything’s safe
i took one step today
maybe i’ll jump before it’s too late

Falls Apart

i would be lying if i said i wished that things would not go wrong
i’ve been waiting for this thing to burst into flames for so long

and it’s always you, the one thing i can’t have, i miss you so bad
i’ve tried hard to forget, hard not to regret the day you walked away
and i’ve done all that i can to make you understand
that i’ll wait here until it falls apart

took no action, just distractions i created to sabotage myself
crime of passion, typical fashion, i’m late as usual and guilty as hell

and it’s always true, i don’t mean what i say when i hope it’s all great
i keep having this dream, you ripping it clean, his heart at the seams, you know what i mean?
it seems that it’s all going fine as it has for some time
but i’ll wait here until it falls apart

and it’s always you, you invoke the sunrise when you open your eyes
and i’ve tried hard to believe that fate will agree that you are for me, so obviously
to fate, i feel i’m just an afterthought but that’s all that i’ve got
so i’ll wait here, i’ll wait here until it falls apart

Someone Else

I walk this road and you walk right beside me
Poking at my ribs, you stoke a fire inside me
This is what this is, there’s not much more to say
I can make you laugh like no one but I’m not amusing fate

You fish and talk about your catch
Wish you were interested in hooking me like that

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I’m in love with someone, so are you
But I’m just someone you feel you can tell everything to
And you’re my someone, I’m not what you have in mind
I wish I were someone else so you could be mine

You tug my tie and make my collar tight
You make your eyes shine bright til I can’t see, I’m blinded
I’m well aware you’re immune to my charm
I’d keep my heart well under guard but one sweet smile and I’m disarmed

You’re like a finger on a flame
You’re so damn pretty but you bring me pain

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The things I’d do to catch your eye
I would trade decades, what’s the point if I don’t feel alive?
The ways I’d never make you cry
The ways I’d try to hold you so high

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Witchcraft

you’ve got your witchcraft
i’m entranced, flat on my back
and just so you know, i miss your smile
when you ask if i’ll stay awhile

i can’t let you go, you know you’ve

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got this spell you’ve cast on me
you make this hell and back on me
and i still feel you’re actin’ sweet
but i am not thinking rationally
no

slap me with the truth
since i’m so easily duped
and just so you know, you make this hard
though i know exactly who you are

i can’t let you go, you know you’ve

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why do i give everything to you
when you’re giving me nothing back?
nothing but a lot of mixed messages
so i’m not sure where we’re at

and all i really know
it’d be healthier for you to go
and all i’ll really say
is nothing so you stay

cause i can’t let you go, you know you’ve

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you’ve got your witchcraft

Throw Me Away

a nice guy is what she says she wants
to someone who’s saved her more than once
so she cries like there’s none around
to someone as he stares politely at the ground

and fights back the urge to scream
“you wasted half my day describing me”
but all his words stay inside, he just rolls his eyes
cause girls can’t find good guys, no..

Chorus:
hey,
you never want what you say
you wanna lead us astray
you want someone who won’t stay
you only wanna be

played, played, oh, you know she’s gonna fall
for someone who doesn’t care all
and she’ll cry like there’s no surprise
cause girls can’t find good guys, no..

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played, i’ve been played, i
i play like i’m never gonna win
i may, might, take what i write
it’s my clay, tonight, i’ll reshape it no end

the girls say, “we were wrong”
the guys say, “let’s move on”
a pretty little slice of modern fiction
that i wish that i could write with more conviction..

hey,
you never want what you say
you wanna lead me astray
you want someone who won’t stay

you wanna throw me away
you wanna throw me away
you wanna throw me away
you wanna throw me away

you wanna throw me away.

She Don't Know

there she goes
the girl who takes my breath away
i know, i know
i’m borderline criminally cliche

i was so close
words formed on the edge of my lips
then i let her go
just this star here to hear my one wish

i, i just don’t know
had this dream so close, couldn’t close, couldn’t say a word
why did it take all this time
for me to find the courage, to write the words she should’ve heard

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what could i have said? did she feel this way too?
does she feel this way now just the same as i do?
i’m further away, she still feels so close
and i don’t ever wanna let go
through the years and tears that were fallin’ like rain
all the chances that i lost, i only have myself to blame
so much i could’ve said and she don’t know

and now she’s gone
packed up her life, out of town and out of state
and i was so wrong
all the things i couldn’t say, oh, the heavy price that i’ve paid

why’s this bottle so dry?
it’s what i put myself through ‘cause i couldn’t say i love you
why did it take all this time?
and now i see that, without her, i’m not me

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and she don’t

no, i don’t think that i’m crazy, maybe i’m in denial
and how i wish she were my baby, oh, for a little while
and i’d give anything she wanted for a half second of smile
and how i wish that she could be here, oh, for a little while

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